Thursday, May 13, 2010
i have got almost 20 of to do list just from sch work,fyp and club affairs alone.
how great could that be,and the list just continues.
the moment u clear one,another just comes in.
and FYP(final year project) is a super duper big headache!!
and one of my stress source-the upcoming concert!
To put it simply,its Never ending!!
Imagine all that bad mood,all the stress,deadlines and all.
With the "best topping up" on earth-lack of support from your counterparts.
All i knew was what my senior ever prove to me when i was in band,from what i kinda observed,club is club,sch is sch and i really salute and highly respect that senior for that. That was what i had always been trying to do. Never bring any personal emotions or unhappiness from elsewhere to club.
Somehow.i was highly irritated yesterday. Other than all that crap from sch,club and i have to control people,it was like FML.
Somehow,for ytd wise,i kinda failed to did that. Yes,i wasn't really showing that i was unhappy,something was getting on my nerves,many things were stressing me out,but eventually, throughout the long day, accumulation of every single crap i had, i kinda couldn't tolerate or hold it out any longer.
I kinda flare-up, and its like ages since i lost my cool.
But,perhaps they were lucky, it wasn't one of those time that was the worst when i lost my cool.
Today was just another mad day rushing all over the place.
morning lab to check cell cultures,passaging and all,then class,lunch,followed by fyp all the way till 7plus. Oh man!
Enough said.
Main point would be sometimes accomodating, silence doesn't mean consent.
Don't test my patience,tolerance,in any way or another. I'm like a timebomb recently.
Know where the line is.
Sometimes,how i wish i could wash my hands of everything and be a worry-less person,but i couldn't.
I SERIOUSLY NEED A BREATHER!!!
Cross my heart,if you complete me.10:32 PM.
